Friday, January 11, 2013
When I was writing the post from the other day I was barely making it through the day without breaking down and bawling. I had the worst anxiety, the worst self-doubt, and just an overall worst day. ever. Not to be all "woe is me", but it really sucked.
All I wanted to do was get home and crawl into bed and sleep the anxiety and doubt away. Yesterday was much, much better since I threw myself in the Word and into this book. It really does make a difference!
Everyone is going around writing their "Word of the year" so I'm going to jump on the bandwagon. After praying about what I should be doing this year, the word "focus" came to mind. Everytime I have anxiety or a self-doubt about something, anything then I will "focus" my thoughts and attention to God's Word. I will repeat it over and over until it is ingrained in my heart. Like Renee says. "when we pray God's words out loud and hear them, the Holy Spirit engraves them on our hearts and writes them in our thoughts." I will focus on the things to be thankful for, the blessings that God has blessed me with, I will focus on one day at a time, and I will focus on breathing more. Being slow to speak, slow to anger, and quick to hear.
That was exactly what I needed to read this morning. Renee has a way with her words that makes it feel like she is talking right to you! How many times have y'all shook your head in response to something she has said?!
I have a hard time accepting that His love is unconditional and that He is always there in a positive way. I have a hard time grasping just how BIG He is and just how BIG His love is for us. I can't fathom it but I am working so hard to get there and see it!
"This is the confidence which we have before Him, that, if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us." - 1 John 5:14
I think back to this time last year and I'm amazed at how much has changed. I'm excited to see where my life goes this year and who will be with me along the way. I'm even more ready to see this time NEXT year! lol Oh Lord please let it be a good one!
How are y'all doing so far in the study?! Are you loving the book?!
Happy Friday Y'all!