Out of my Box

You know those weekends where you just can't wait for Monday to come along because the work week will be less stressful and less eventful? I feel like I could sleep for days! This weekend was one giant cluster fuck after the other.

First I'll start off with Wednesday night & the Bachelorette Party that happened.
We started with Dinner at BB's in downtown Jacksonville.

 I thought I should step outside of my box for once & try something new so I ordered a "Bellini Martini"

Gag. I sent it back because it tasted like cough syrup. So I went back into my box and ordered a Moscato.

All was well in the world again.

 excuse the girl making a face. lol

After dinner we headed to a local gay bar called "InCahoots" for a drag show. It was my first time to a drag show or a gay bar even so it was definitely a different experience. Fun none the less though.

That'd be the bride :) 

I left shorty after getting there because I needed to work in the morning. They stayed and partied until 4am the next morning. I'm too old for that folks.

Friday night was the wedding. It was beyond beautiful and I couldn't be happier for our two best friends!

OOTN :)

Bride & Groom!

The rest of the evening consisted of drinking, eating, dancing, picture taking, and most importantly laughing. Matt was the best man in the weddin.

Now I can focus on this upcoming weekend! First half marathon! ahhh!

Here's a pic of Miss. Sassy Pants the other night at Spooktacular:

Ignore me please. She is such a ham.

Happy Halloween Y'all!

The Whys.

So a lot of people have asked & I'm don't care about sharing because I'm pretty much an open book. It's part of my life and what I'm going through. I don't censor my real life so I won't censor the blog. I've already asked M if he minded and he said no, so maybe I'll help someone else out who is going through similar situations or who might be wanting to take that big step first.

Don't get me wrong this decision wasn't easy at all. In fact, even though we both knew it was a long time coming, it took months to make the final leap.

What happened you ask? Which is what I get a lot. Well. We are like night and day. Complete opposites. But not the good kind where we can balance each other out. We don't make each other better people and we don't get along about anything. Unless it involves K. (Yes, there are other reasons but I'll leave those out for now) After months of this, it gets exhausting. It wears you down and eventually completely breaks you.

Some of you are probably thinking, "go to counseling, make it work, suck it up, divorce isn't the answer." I ask that you please respect our decision and respect that I've put this out there for everyone to read. You don't have to keep us in your prayers or thoughts and you don't have to send your support by any means. But please do not email me in a bad way or talk badly about M. You will never, ever see me talk badly about him. Especially somewhere where he can't defend himself.

With that said, again this is the best decision for our family. In the long run it will be better for everyone involved.

I often feel guilty for not being completely devastated about this or heartbroken. I feel sad about it because he's not having an easy time but I'm relieved by it. I feel like I can breathe again.I feel like I'm finding myself again. Slowly but surely, I'm finding who I was before all of the fighting and all of the disagreements, all of the bickering and all of the nasty words that have been thrown around.

Slowly but surely, things will fall back into place.


If you have more questions don't hesitate to ask. I don't mind sharing at all. Don't feel bad to ask :)
Keep it friendly though haha
 

Also, if you could please say a little prayer for Jenn and her Gramma. It'd be greatly appreciated!!

Thanks y'all!

"But as the thunder rolls, I barely hear you whisper through the rain "I'm with you". And as your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away. & I'll praise you in this storm & I will lift my hands. For you are who you are, no matter where I am." -Casting Crowns

Happy Thursday Y'all!

"Oh! How Pinteresting!"

First of all, thank you so much for the sweet comments & your prayers on yesterdays post.

It was a hard decision, but know that we fully believe that we're making the right one. Kinsley comes before anything and so does her well being. This is best decision for us all and I truly appreciate your thoughts & most definitely your prayers.

Now onto "Oh! How Pinteresting"!

Because we could all use a good laugh around here :)

"My Style" Pinboard:

"For the Home" Pinboard:

"Quotes I Love" Pinboard:

"Yummy Treats" Pinboard:

Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Cheesecake Bars

S'mores Cobbler

S'mores Cake

"High-Larious" Pinboard:

you know that's how you sing it too.

To join in, as always, go to Michelle's blog and link up! 

Happy Wednesday Y'all!

Tie a Knot

"When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot a hang on" - Franklin D Roosevelt


I'm not sure how to really start this off other than you've probably noticed the lack of posts. and the lack of posts consisting of my husband.

For months now we've been trying to work on things, but with no success. After long debates and conversations and mainly arguments, the decision is now final.

M and I are getting a divorce.

While it was the farthest thing from an easy road getting here, We both believe and feel that we will be better friends and better parents (which is most important) if we are not together. I know that we will both be a lot happier once everything is done and once we have gone our separate ways for good.

I haven't been blogging or tweeting much lately because I like to use these as an outlet but wasn't ready to talk to anyone or let anyone know what was going on. But as of last night, it's official and I'm ready to talk and ready to announce it.

Because really? The Blogosphere holds some of my best friends and y'all have been an amazing support system thus far. So I apologize for sucking at blogging lately. Even though I know you'll tell me not to apologize, it's understandable. I am.

and I feel A LOT better now that it's out in the open!

I thank you for your thoughts and prayers. They are MUCH appreciated.

xo


"Tomorrow is the most important thing in life. Comes into us at midnight very clean. It's perfect when it arrives and puts itself in our hands. It hopes we've learned something from yesterday." - John Wayne

Crispy Chocolate Peanut Butter Cups

Last weekend I finally made something off of Pinterest. & I couldn't have picked a better thing to make for the first time. It's no secret that I'm in love with all things peanut butter and have a Reese's a day so as soon as I saw this pin, I KNEW I had to make these!

All pictures are from Iowa Girl Eats site. I didn't take any pictures of my cups or the process because I was too excited and too busy eating the mixture. Priorities people. Priorities.

Yield: 30 mini cups
Ingredients:
1 1/4 cups smooth peanut butter
1/4 cup butter, room temperature
1 cup powdered sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 1/2 cups crispy rice cereal
1 3/4 cups milk chocolate or semi-sweet chocolate chips
Directions:
1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Grease mini muffin cups with non-stick spray and add a scant Tablespoon chocolate chips into each cup. Melt in the oven for 5 minutes. With the back of a spoon, smooth out the top of the chocolate chips while they’re still warm. Set aside. (You could also melt the chocolate chips in q microwave or on the stovetop and spoon into cups.)
2. In a large bowl, cream together peanut butter and butter until smooth. Add in powdered sugar and vanilla, then mix until combined. Pour in crispy rice cereal and mix again until combined.
3. Drop heaping Tablespoons of the peanut butter mixture into each mini muffin cup. Smooth with the back of a spoon and refrigerate for at least 15 minutes before eating. Store in an airtight container in the fridge.

 Obviously these didn't last long in the house. They were so delicious! I can't wait to make them again.

Everything was really easy to do. The steps were pretty simple. The only hard thing to do was waiting 15 minutes for them to chill in the fridge before eating. lol

& I had a lot of batter left! I didn't read all the way at the bottom of her site about making them into dough balls. I think I'll be doing that next time! The batter was SO GOOD!

Nom. Nom Nom

Happy Friday Y'all!

It's OK

How have I not seen this from two of my favorite ladies? That's OK because I'm joining in now ;)

 It's OK:

• -that I completed 6 miles in an hour and so minutes when I have to run 13 in 16 days because for once, I'm not freaking out about it.
• -to forget to take out the chicken every morning this week and have homemade peanut butter cups for dinner one night
• -to tell your husband that you have a meeting after work...& by meeting you mean nail appointment
• -to only put out the gross candy (ie: M&Ms) for Halloween and hide the good stuff
• -to have nothing to wear when it's cold because you forgot that you were pregnant last winter. Because now you can go buy more clothes.
• -to have already started planning your 7 month old's first birthday party...in February
• -to want to go to bed early just so you can lay there and "pin" on pinterest. 

Link up with Neely and Amber to share what "It's OK" with you!

Happy Thursday Y'all!

Homemade Reese's Cup recipe up next!

"Oh! How Pinteresting!"

Womp Womp! Time for pins. Make sure you stop by Michelle's blog and tell her CONGRATS for being a newly married woman :)

My Style Pinboard:

 High-Larious Pinboard:

Quotes I Love Pinboard:

Running Love Pinboard:

 

Happy Wednesday Y'all!!